I wouldn't wish it on anybody.Ī young girl I know is pregnant, and I am so determined to be there and make sure she does not go through this also. But I honestly thought they would be happier without me there ruining everything. That breaks my heart to remember thinking that, Dh and ds are my world. I did honestly think every day about running away and leaving ds with Dh. The next day however I collapsed in the hall, that was when we started combo feeding. I remember think that night that I should go kill myself and Dh and ds would be happier. I was absolutely EXHAUSTED, I have never felt so low in my whole life, I had a mastitis as well which gave me an awful fever. I don't remember a huge deal about ds's first few weeks, but I do remember sitting in breastfeeding in bed breaking my heart one night thinking how shit everything was and how I wished I'd never had him. Has anybody else been here and now feel better? Any advice appreciated.ĮNS23 what a brave thing to admit, thank you. I am looking for something else.Įverything feels on top of me at the moment and I just want to feel happy again. I'm due back at work soon and my manager is horrible and picks on me and I hate my job and I cry at the thought of going back it we need the money. I know that's irrational but I'm just too scared. I'm so scared if I go to my gp or talk to my HV they will take my boy away from me because they think I am depressed. I am most of the time but sometimes I just cry and feel like a rubbish mum. Then she stopped coming because she said I seem fine. I was so down at first and my HV appointed a lady to come see me once a week and makes sure I was ok.
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I had an EMCS with no skin to skin for hours, I was so drugged up. So in honor of the kyrie/pnd/kehlani i thought id upload this vid on it to add to the salt. I feel so guilty that I feel like this when he is so perfect. He's 9mo and I love him so much I honestly do. I keep thinking about going to the doctors but I am absolutely petrified they will start sending people round to check up on me and they will think I am unfit to look after my beautiful boy. I convinced my myself at first that I don't. Visit the See Us pages and get all the tools and resources you need to take action. You can be part of that change by joining a movement of thousands of people across Scotland. We are encouraging people to take action to make a difference. Looking for advice but posted on aibu as I know it is always busy with lots of women who have been through difficult times relating to PND. See Me is Scotlands national programme to end mental health stigma and discrimination. Hi there, regular poster, NC as I am a bit nervous I will be recognised.